Friday, May 29, 2015

Overactive Mind

I think too much.

You could consider me well-traveled solely because of all the trains of thought I've ridden. You could also consider me very adventurous because my trains of thought almost always go off track. Enough of that metaphor. Often times my mind wanders so much that focusing is a Sisyphean task. I'll be attempting to do homework when all of a sudden my brain hops on a plane and takes off on some crazy adventure. The best word(s) I can use to describe the way I think is long-winded--just kind of rambly and extensive. One of my most common trains of thought is imagining deaths. For some reason, I randomly start thinking of friends or family dying in elaborate accidents. It often escalates to the point where I force myself to tears. Literally, I just torture myself for no reason. That's what my brain does to me, and it's so rude! On top of that, I tend to read into things too much. Whenever anyone does anything I can't help but think he/she has ulterior motives--wants to destroy me, hates me, thinks I'm a jerk, etc. Hence, constant paranoia. There are more, but these two are the most popular.

I've always wondered if the way I think is common. Is everyone plagued with an overactive mind? I've always wanted to be tested just to know because I think about it so much! I just wish I could know.

Something that's been on my mind! Sorry this is kind of random. Just kidding, I'm not sorry.

I don't even know what's going on anymore.

<Lucy Cartin

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

In Fear of Feels

In less than four weeks, I will be graduating high school.


I don't consider myself emotionally expressive. Generally speaking, when I'm angry or upset, I don't let people know or see. Obviously anger and sadness don't feel good, but I can generally cope. What I can't handle is when I get sentimental. Fun fact: I get sentimental over the stupidest things. If I use a pen to write something important, I'll attach some sort of weird importance to the pen. If that pen breaks, I'll feel weirdly sad.

I've been hitting a lot of lasts lately (for example, last speech and debate tournament, which hit me really hard because I'm a speech freak), so you can imagine that I've been struggling lately. I've been handling it, but this is just the feels preview. THE FEELS STORM IS YET TO COME. Last week of school. Graduation. Everyone I know will be a mess. I definitely won't stay dry in this storm, but hopefully I don't drown in a flood.


<Lucy Cartin

Monday, May 25, 2015

All Grown Up

blazer: American Rag; blouse: TJ Maxx; trousers: H&M; 
bag: Nine West; shoes: Nine West

Look at me! Dressed like an adult. I wore this about a week ago at my school's senior awards, but I just got around to posting it because life is crazy. I only have two weeks of high school left, but for some reason I have four projects due. Aren't we supposed to be dying down? These projects are killing me. Honestly, if you'd given me this same work load a couple of months ago, I wouldn't have a problem. It's just that I officially let the senioritis settle in after AP tests, but now the man wants me to do work? This is ridiculous! Just a little rant for you there, sorry to stress you out.

<Lucy Cartin

Friday, May 22, 2015


I'm not a social person. For the most part, I prefer to spend my nights at home instead of going out with friends. On a seemingly unrelated but actually very relevant note, I hate wasting a good outfit on an uneventful day. As a result, I spend most of my Saturdays dressed like this. Not much to say here, I just figured that since I post my outfits on this blog, I might as well post the outfit I wear most often.

Have a marvelous day!

<Lucy Cartin

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Mini Spring/Summer Haul

My aunt took me birthday/congratulations-on-graduating shopping earlier this week, and I found some great stuff that I wanted to share here!

I got this top at Forever 21 for $16. Let me just preface everything I have to say about this top by saying that I love loud pieces. As cool as this minimalist, black and white trend is, I personally find it boring to constantly wear only black, white, and grey, so I'm always drawn towards bright colors and bold prints. In addition to the vivid hues and exotic pattern, this top exudes a very athletic, modern vibe whose potential excites me. Not to mention, the fabric is rather light and the structure is loose, so it's ideal for warm weather.

This dress is from H&M, and it was $35. I typically don't buy things from H&M because the one in my closest mall is kind of messy and difficult to shop in, so when I walked into H&M today (not the one in my typical mall), I was pleasantly surprised. Actually, I was super excited. H&M currently has so many beautiful pieces with gorgeous prints--and for a decent price. Now if you're like me, then you'll be thinking that $35 isn't a decent price. I'm the kind of person who doesn't buy clothes for more than $20. However, this isn't just any dress! This is the dress I'm planning to wear to my graduation (tears). The dress is more fitted and structured on top and is loose and flowing on the bottom--which suits my body shape really well. It's got pastels and flowers, so it seemed very appropriate for a graduation. What I love most about this dress, though, is that it kind of matches the color of my cap and gown, so the pictures will look extra cute.

Also from H&M, this top was only $10. Sleeveless collared shirts are really convenient for me because I can easily integrate them into any outfit. Specifically, they're perfect for layering under dresses and t-shirts. I'm also excited about this top because it's going to add some new colors to my wardrobe. Whereas most of my clothes are white, bright, or pastel, this top has a warmer, cozier color palette that gives an old-timey feel.

These trousers are also from H&M and cost $15. My decision to buy these trousers was influenced by Zoella (a YouTuber) and my dad (weird, I know). In one of Zoella's recent hauls, she talked about some floral trousers she got from Topshop, and I loved how they looked on her and the idea of them, which is weird because I don't generally wear pants. This brings me to my dad's influence. Since I'm going to university next year and won't have my parents' immediate protection, my dad asked me to wear more pants (as opposed to shorts and skirts) to protect me from strangers and sexual predators and all that. Personally, I think his concern is kind of far-fetched, but if it comforts him to know that I own a few pairs of pants, then I'll own a few pairs of pants. I actually wore these to senior awards, so there's probably an OOTD post coming up soon!

Finally at the end! This skirt is also from H&M and only cost $7. Deal of the day! Not to mention, I needed something to wear with all of my louder pieces. The fabric is quasi-thick and doesn't promote panty lines. It's not particularly spring or summer-esque, but it's still fun and colorful. And if I didn't already mention this, it was only $7!!

Monday, May 18, 2015

Autumn May

sweater: Free People; scarf: made by my mother <3; 
jeans: American Eagle; boots: Unisa

Sorry this place as been idle for two weeks, but AP tests are over (FOREVER!) so I'm back!

In one of my earliest posts on this blog I wrote that I don't wear jeans--and generally, I don't. However, I recently watched a crap ton of look books on YouTube and fell in love with the effect that loose, cuffed boyfriend jeans have. I thought to myself that I needed to buy a pair of boyfriend jeans, but then I realized that I'll probably only wear them for a month and be over the trend. So I decided to just make do with an old pair of jeans (which look brand spanking new because I've only worn them five times in the past four years). Luckily, it's been oddly chilly in Southern California, so I could satisfy my strange desire for jeans immediately. We'll see how long it lasts.

<Lucy Cartin

my mom insisted that I do this, so here it is.
also, my mom knit me this giant scarf, so thank you to her!

Friday, May 1, 2015

Birthday Gifts

First of all, to my loving friends, THANK YOU!

My birthday isn't until tomorrow, but I won't see most of them tomorrow so they lovingly showered me with gifts today at school. I wasn't planning on doing a post showing my gifts, but they're all so pretty! And I didn't have any ideas or outfits to share... Seriously, it's been so hot here that all of my outfits have been pretty uninspired. Sorry 'bout it.

I digress.

I was going to make this sad by saying that this is the last birthday that I'll be able to celebrate like this with all of them, but I won't because I don't think I can handle that right now. Let's stay positive. Thank you guys for making me feel special and loved.

<Lucy Cartin

Also, kind of wishing I took all the photos where I shot the flowers because the lighting is better, but it's too late. I'm fighting perfectionism. It's not laziness.